|But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, wasn’t with them when Jesus came. The other disciples therefore said to him, “We have seen the Lord!”But he said to them, “Unless I see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”After eight days again his disciples were inside, and Thomas was with them. Jesus came, the doors being locked, and stood in the middle, and said, “Peace be to you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Reach here your finger, and see my hands. Reach here your hand, and put it into my side. Don’t be unbelieving, but believing.”Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!”Jesus said to him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed. Blessed are those who have not seen, and have believed.”John 20.24-29 World English Bible version|
|They called him ‘Doubting Thomas’ because he asked for proof. As if faith is the easiest thing in the world. As if nobody has ever imagined they’ve seen the dead restored to life. As if it was likely that Jesus was alive.Being told by other people that Jesus was back from the dead isn’t good enough. Thomas knows himself, he knows he won’t believe until he sees him.Even seeing him isn’t good enough – Thomas has to feel him, to feel the wounds, before he can believe the man he sees is the man who died on the cross three days before.
Thomas doesn’t want a picture perfect Jesus, carrying on as if nothing has happened.
He wants the Jesus he knows, a human being who has suffered and died and yet somehow – unbelievably, impossibly – has risen again, wounds and all.
Faith can be a struggle.
When we’re surrounded by people who seem completely sure of their faith, it can be embarrassing to admit doubt. We try to force ourselves to believe, to hide our doubts, even from ourselves, even from God.
But God knows our hearts, and knows our doubts, and loves us.
God’s love is not dependent on our belief. It just IS.
by Pam Smith and Caroline Birchmore
Pam is the Priest in Charge of i-church, and Caroline is the Technical Co-ordinator
Be Thou My Vision – Jeff Wooldridge – Courtesy of Godly Christian Music